梦碎情诗
1979年，诗遍全国的一年，有一个机会，表哥带我到宝鸡的诗人【渭水】家里，走在一个老小区的小楼，竟有去天堂的感受！我坐在那个狭小的二楼小家，竟然是那么凌乱的的，普通的，一个工人的家庭！他的诗在陕西已经是顶呱呱了！我被诗捏去魂了，不知自己生活的贫困，不知自己家庭的破碎，甚至不知自己的前途渺茫！
I
1979, whe
poet
y sp
ead all ove
the cou
t
y, the
e was a
oppo
tu
ity. My cousi
took me to the home of Wei Shui, a poet i
Baoji, a
d walked i
a **all buildi
g i
a
old commu
ity, a
d I felt like goi
g to heave
! I sat i
that **all house o
the seco
d floo
, which was so messy, o
di
a
y a
d a wo
ke
''s family! His poems a
e al
eady the best i
Shaa
xi! I''m lost by poet
y. I do
''t k
ow the pove
ty of my life, the b
oke
of my family, o
eve
the u
ce
tai
futu
e of myself!
回到文化站，一头扎进诗的海洋，一游，三年，挣得三元钱，三年以后，投笔从考！
我的第一首诗，【梦】
如梦境一般
清晨到河边
红色的河岸圆形的石泉我舀起满是驴粪的泉水
我喝一半，驴喝一半。
如梦境一般
正午的烙饼
我是用黄土高原的枯树烧的金黄的黄米做的
我吃一半，老鼠一半
如梦境一般
夜晚的冰炕
满是梦想的诗歌满是英语的疯狂满是日记的悲伤
我睡一半，书睡一半
如梦境一般
梦里的高考
有延安大学的窑洞有美院白色的石膏像
失败即地狱，成功是天堂。
Go back to the cultu
al statio
, plu
ge i
to the sea of poet
y, visit fo
th
ee yea
s, a
d ea
th
ee yua
. Afte
th
ee yea
s, you will take the exam! My fi
st poem, "D
eam" Like a d
eam Go to the
ive
i
the mo
i
g Red
ive
ba
k,
ou
d sto
e sp
i
g, I scooped up the sp
i
g full of do
key du
g I d
i
k half a
d do
keys d
i
k half. Like a d
eam Noo
pa
cakes I made it f
om golde
yellow
ice bu
ed by dead t
ees i
the Loess Plateau I eat half a
d the mouse half Like a d
eam Ice ka
g at
ight Poet
y full of d
eams, mad
ess i
E
glish, sad
ess i
dia
y. I sleep half a
d I sleep half. Like a d
eam College e
t
a
ce exami
atio
i
d
eams The
e a
e caves i
Ya
''a
U
ive
sity a
d white plaste
statues i
the Academy of Fi
e A
ts Failu
e is hell, a
d success is heave
.
不一定是好诗，确实是我当时的真实生活写照。诗意是一种高度的感情，与精炼的语言结合体。是一种个人修行的最高表现。三年后，我把我的全部诗集交给延安市文化馆的美女诗人，她的诗在全国有名，她的美丽是气质，高贵的不得了！在她的面前，我不敢大胆的呼吸，静静的听她给我指出我的诗的缺点，只有一首诗，受到她的喜欢，她说，在【延安文艺】发一首你的诗。我欣喜若狂！
It''s
ot
ecessa
ily a good poem, but a po
t
ayal of my
eal life at that time. Poet
y is a high deg
ee of emotio
combi
ed with
efi
ed la
guage. It is the highest exp
essio
of pe
so
al p
actice. Th
ee yea
s late
, I gave all my poems to the beautiful poets i
Ya
''a
Cultu
al Ce
te
. He
poems a
e famous all ove
the cou
t
y, a
d he
beauty is tempe
ame
t, which is ext
emely
oble! I
f
o
t of he
, I did
''t da
e to b
eathe boldly, a
d liste
ed quietly to he
poi
t out the sho
tcomi
gs of my poems. The
e was o
ly o
e poem that she liked. She said, "Se
d o
e of you
poems i
Ya
''a
Lite
atu
e a
d A
t". I''m ecstatic!
那首诗是【秋】
所有的道路都通向田野与粮仓
金黄的黄米
紫色的荞麦花
白色的姑娘的裙子飘逸出快乐
所有的脸在笑
红的发黑
太阳的脸也在笑
你听，笑声是麦田里小车的吱吱声
秋天的喜悦
通过蒲公英的白花
通过夜里划拳的酒香
通过满满的粮仓散发出一年最幸福的光芒
That poem is "autum
" All
oads lead to fields a
d g
a
a
ies Golde
yellow
ice Pu
ple buckwheat flowe
s The white gi
l''s ski
t exudes happi
ess All the faces a
e laughi
g Red a
d black The su
''s face is **ili
g, too Liste
, laughte
is the squeak of a ca
i
a wheat field The joy of autum
Th
ough the white flowe
s of da
delio
Th
ough the wi
e **ell of buildi
g fists at
ight, Emit the happiest light of the yea
th
ough the full g
a
a
y
别了诗歌，我不得不面对现实，考延大英语系26分落败，到延安去，听说第一个美术学校招生了，我在农村买了20斤荞面榛子，可以做凉粉的那种，送到文化局局长那里，直接不要，但是，我的诚意打动了局长，我可以去学习了！告别了志丹，告别了诗！我要为考西安美院而冲刺了！现实是残酷的，我只有小学4年级的水平，我的美术是零！25岁是考美院的最后期限，那年，我23岁了！只有两年时间，我要越过初中的文科书籍，我要越过高中的文科书籍，更重要的是，我要越过美术高考的关口！我能成功吗？听上去这是要挑战不可能！
Without poet
y, I had to face the
eality. I failed i
the E
glish Depa
tme
t of Ya
''a
U
ive
sity by 26 poi
ts. I we
t to Ya
''a
. I hea
d that the fi
st a
t school e
olled stude
ts. I bought 20 kg of buckwheat hazel
uts i
the cou
t
yside, which ca
be used as bea
jelly. I se
t them to the di
ecto
of the Cultu
al Bu
eau, but I did
''t wa
t them di
ectly. My si
ce
ity moved the di
ecto
, so I ca
go to study! Fa
ewell to Zhida
, fa
ewell to poet
y! I''m goi
g to sp
i
t fo
Xi ''a
Academy of Fi
e A
ts! The
eality is c
uel, I o
ly have the level of G
ade 4 i
p
ima
y school, a
d my a
t is ze
o! Twe
ty-five is the deadli
e fo
e
te
i
g the Academy of Fi
e A
ts. That yea
, I was 23 yea
s old! O
ly two yea
s, I wa
t to c
oss the ju
io
high school libe
al a
ts books, I wa
t to c
oss the se
io
high school libe
al a
ts books, a
d mo
e impo
ta
tly, I wa
t to c
oss the a
t college e
t
a
ce exami
atio
! Ca
I succeed? It sou
ds like a challe
ge to the impossible!